12/8/10

So finally convo ended yesterday. How was it if u asked me. Well...kinda bored. Thought I'd feel crying or touch...but i dint. Just duper boring. Was still so excited attending convo for the very 1st time in my life and den got bored and bored and bored after that. Ended up we chat at the back and some of us even slept! haha :D

And guess the reason I haven had any special feeling towards it maybe due to it's not the time yet? hmm :| Yet i started imagine what would I feel next year. My own convo. Will I had no feeling still? but I know I'd feel kind of 空虚 after that. It's like the feeling I dunno what to do next or tomorrow gonna be different yet I had not enough mental preparation for it!

And now I started to think what shall i do after this. Master or Work?

Hmm.

I needed someone mature someone elder someone i can refer to help me. yet I found no one. People would just tell you 'Follow your heart". But I need advices.

:|

P.s.: After last time's incident, guess it affect me pretty much, i'm getting more 'evil' now. Recently,I just start thinking what's the point I caring for others so much yet ppl just thought that was what you should do for them they dont really appreciate it and might not even be there when u needed them. But of course i'm not doing these to everyone around me just some person I realised that's not worth of me caring for them so much.

Sometimes I felt I'm being left out.

and

I hate being left out.

Really.

Did tried to think positive.

I really did.

But,

I just cant overcome the negative one.

Happy! ^^

经过这几天的rehearsal for convo performance,

虽然每天晚上都得出席，而且还练得很迟（感谢永翔这几天愿意载我回宿舍，辛苦他了),

不过可能是好久没和大家一起这样练习了，

这几天练习回来都好开心！C:

^v^

这也同时让我发现，

其实我的对华乐还是有热诚的，

我的心还在。

P.S.:

至少现在的我，

是这样认为的。

:)

050810

An international student was praising the Oldies played in Bakery were so great and even made him forgot all his annoying works just now! The lady boss was so happy hearing that. Den I told her I love their songs too (sincerely i really do felt so~), she was even more happy after that!!

and

Yay, I made someone's day today!! ^^

and

It made my day too :)