Tuesday, December 29, 2009

EQ

我想获取我昨天有点超过。我意思是昨天那样东西更本就是件小事,而我竟然为了那件事生了一肚子气。。显然的,我的EQ不够高。
我不知道我的fb status是不是有误导的现象,让别人以为我的海报设计没有被选中,我很生气。
可是我真的不是那个意思,我生气不爽是另外一件事,不是为了海报没有被选中而伤心气愤。
今早上课时,那个coursemate就问我你是不是有事情要告诉我。因为在大家面前,我不想到处宣传这件事,就只是告诉他有不过会私下找他说。。而他也回答说我很开明的有什么事尽管找我说。
我不知道他是不是看见我的status来这样问我。。不过既然他都这样说了。。或许明天有机会一定会告诉他我不舒服的地方。

显然的
我的EQ不够高
要改进


SHIT!

现在我只想大大声地骂出:干!给你个双飞腿!
Well, none of my posters were selected by them which in fact i had very well mentally preparation for tat before meeting today. Once i knew the result, i was kind of 'oh..ok..i knew it! and well it's everyone's choice..alright~ at least some other seniors were on my side (they voted for mine)" yet of course, i was still kind of sad and a bit moody after that throughout the meeting. I dint speak much. Even if i talked to smile or laugh, to be frank here, that wasn't my real mood.

I'm now not angry with anything but my coursemates's attitude, i planned to talk to him about what he did. Asking a non member friend to design the poster and uploaded it to FB without my knowledge (my partner as well). Damn it~!! After talking to OJM, i felt maybe i was 好胜心强。my coursemate did had his wrong part yet it dont reli worth for me to be that angry...it's jus a little thing and i should maybe talk to my coursemate so that he wont repeat that next time. But looking at the situation just now and the way my coursemate talk.

Just now the situation was I presented all the posters (mine and not mine as well). And then we finally got the answer all them choose poster that wasnt design by me. And altho i was sad but I was actually Ok with that. Even though i felt very down yet i knew it was my problem. I just need some time to accept it to be true.

But, when my coursemate came in meeting (he was very late actually) then one of the senior was joking to him said: 'hey u design that choosen poster ar? "
den he said ' no la...i asked my friend design it!'
senior:' oh...no wonder i knew u not tat pro oso la...haha'
the joke should actually ended here. Cos everyone knew it's just a joke. yet what my coursemate replied after tat was making me really 不爽with him. I was like I wont wan talk to u on the rest of the day anymore.

'haha...of cos la...this thing i find friend do one. she pro ma...and see i so clever always find other ppl do one~"
WTF!

den ok lor...other members said the posters got somewhere to reedit. so after knowing what the posters should be reedit. i asked tat coursemate:
'hmm...you tihnk i should reedit the poster myself or your friend as this poster was ur friend's work...i dunno..''

and u know what he said?

' of course u la....it's ur job what..'

WTF! Tat's my poster meh? why are u like speaking tat way as if tat was my work and i was still asking rubbish to u?! Really WTF! He still haven realized what he had done before ad not respect me and now he still talk like tat.he dont respect his friend as well. this was making me feel like if i go correct him tmr, i sure will shoot back by him still. WTH!
@!#$^&$%**^


but glad i've still got OJM and my sis listen to my angriness~ ojm and i agreed took it as a experience and my sis said give him a 双飞腿! LOL

i've got bad feeling tat he might just ask his friend reedit it and announce it during meeting later or on FB
SHIT!
我不知道我应该白怎样的心情
去reedit不是我的作品的作品
靠!


Monday, December 21, 2009

beh song

雖然表面上不會顯露出任何不悅,但其實心裏很介意
i was expecting much more than that yet it wasnt like that.
arent orang tu should tell me before orang tu did that?
alright i admit m kinda jealous or..hmm angry i suppose...i got to admit it was good yet i just cant accept it or i should say i haven had any mental preparation for it. funny isnt it?! i actually nid mentally preparation to see that?! WTH!
i reli mind. i reli do. a person who isnt in charge of it is doing it.
!@@#$%^*^
Argg..i'm just having unbalance mind now..
F#@%$5@!

it's reli hard when u feel reli beh song yet u cant tell anyone
i tot for some time who can i tell to..yet i cant find anyone right now...yea for now...maybe i shall wait for sometime...and release out wat m angry with. and face myself.

靠!就是介意!
怎样?我就是不爽!!!!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

051209

虽然之前。。其实现在好像也是(不太确定)。。哎呀是有时候啦。。不是很认同他的想法。。不过刚刚知道知道他和她的事后,却又地替他感到惋惜。。不过也不确定是真的替他感到惋惜还是。。哎呀不懂啦。。。算了。。=P


话说星期三那天终于和大家去玩了!^^thanks to kathy~~呵呵。。难得sarah从澳洲回来就plan什么时候要出来gathering~=) 聊了大家的近况。。还有每一次gathering必提的人物,话题。。有时候在想,他们不会厌烦的吗?每一次gathering就问那些陈年往事。。不过也还好那些陈年往事,大家才有话题聊,开开玩笑。。不然大家都没在一起上课了。。说真的,实在很难有话题再聊~~=)


这个sem起突然对几个人很抗拒。。不是很喜欢他们的态度。。可是在面前还是会装没事,可是会很少和他们讲话。。大学里的人很复杂~~

我以为我会很期待camp
事实上
并不是那样

Thursday, November 26, 2009

261109

昨天看了突然变很多的comments后,突然觉得好像有点压力。。觉得或许我应该把posters做得更好才upload上去给大家看。。。不过对于大家的意见我都有看,都有采用哦~也好感谢学姐学长们给予我很多很多的帮助。。还有jin pin,这东西其实也不管他的事,不过他还是很乐意给予我在photoshop的帮助,我的photoshop只是真的是有限公司~

海报upload上后,昨天也有受学长学姐称赞及‘辛苦了’这些话。。。不过不知怎么了,也看到他们这样对我说,我就越觉得有一点点内疚,就。。。怎么说呢。。。我觉得这些话不应该我一个人受 (虽然好报真的是自己花了不少时间,做得快吐血了地做的),其实我也有partner,不过他好像很忙的样子,自假期回家后,就没办法联络上他,然后既然自己在家也没事干,就动起手来,自制那两张海报。。。
第一个,因为photoshop不是很厉害,做得快吐血了。。
第二个就还好~~=)
不过我个人比较喜欢第一个。。目前大家反映来看,也比较喜欢第一个~


btw,昨天突然想到好久没看梁汉良的文章了。。就去google search 下。。(因为他好像常换地方写)。。就看到了。。很惊喜惊讶。。原来他还有在写。=)


我以为你不写了,

回去看了下,

才发现原来还在,

只是我很久没去看了,

这么久,

文笔依旧,

而我也还是那样的喜欢看。=)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Posters


pheww....luckily they are ok with the posters...gave comments..and ah heng even tagged everyone's name on it!! =)

YAY!
will work harder for it~


Monday, November 23, 2009

Holiday



做了几天的posters...要吐血了。。
photoshop这玩意儿。。还真不容易。。



Monday, November 16, 2009

Holiday liao


this holiday i planned nth
but practice my flute
=P

i wonder why i can blow out 'so'
yet teacher can~

Sunday, November 8, 2009

After Exam Plan

9/11
10.30 am - Finish Ins
11.00 am -move to sunway
12.00 am - eat lunch at pyramid
1.00 pm - Sunway Lagoon
6.00 pm - Lagoon close
6.00 pm - shopping
8.00 pm @ 8.30 pm - ss2 pasar malam - dinner at the hawker stall or wong kok
10.00 pm - back chai peng's home sleep


10/11
10.00 am - move out from house, go to the curve, ikea, ikano power center - all link together
10.45 am - will reach there
- find lunch shooping ......
- walk around
- movie at cineplex
- chiong k at the curve red box
5.00 pm - Dinner at ss3 - western food at a coffee shop
7.00 pm - go to subang ktm back to ukm


- THE END -



Gosh..i'm soooooo looking forward to it man since the day our plan is out! Not excited because of the places we are going but with the ppl i'm going with! my coursemates and facmates~ ^^ my first time going hav fun with them (coursetrip not counted..some of them dint joined though)=]

but before that
Fulaien~~
Please work harder for ur insurance!!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Arigato



I am so so so so Glad that I had great friends.
They always helped me out when i needed them.
^^
thanks for borrowing me stuff..
thanks for willing listen to my complains..
=D
Thank you,Junie, Mei Ying, Fei Xin, Jaet Wei, Wei Keat, Shin Wang, Jin Pin and Yi Ting!
^^

and of cos, thanks to Jing Yuan, Ai lin and Alvin for answering my chem questions!
u guys helped me lot!
^^
Thank God for letting me know such great friends and having great family too.=]


Was so glad
u were online!

Friday, October 16, 2009

今天老师说吹笛子。。

用感觉来感觉
(名词+动词)


超喜欢华乐
=)

Saturday, October 10, 2009

反省


有时候我在想,我是应该加强自己的自制能力。不要受别人太多影响,其实觉得2nd year 的自己好像有点变了。i want old florence back~~不要再堕落下去,都要考final了,可是紧张或者要考试的心情却没有很强烈。。弗莱恩啊~你在搞什么?!
你要加油啊,知道吗。。
别再上facebook
别再每晚都赖在网上不走
别再以上开关msn,明明就没有和任何人 chat,就是不把它关掉
别再每晚一套有一套的看戏
别再这么懒了!


你要加油啊!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

我不知道我那样认真警告,有没有被听进去,可是我是真的很不喜欢那样子的玩笑。

玩笑开太over,只会带来反效果。




我是生气了

Sunday, October 4, 2009

MPP PT 30

Yay! Finally~PT 30 ended!! i had so much fun there! ^^(tot of writting blog yesterday yet i was too tired for doing tat =p) It's so fun being Internal AJK altho i got no chance to watch the play~ To be frank, i was kind of regret for joining Internal as we got no chance watch the play as other bahagian and we were asked to attend most of the practices and camps (btw, i ponteng most of it though~ =P) 2days before the MPP, i was still complaining to Jing Wen tat i should have joined back Publicity den i can have easier jobs and can watch the play on the day too~

But i changed my mind after attending Friday's rehearsal. I was kind of asking back myself Why am i having such tot of regretting being Internal AJK?! It's so Fun being dancers' or actors' assistant! ^^ and i even got a nice dancer, Melody. She was so nice and I was actually dint have to worry about anything as she ady pack all of her stuffs accordingly..wat i nid to do was just helping her to change as fast as possible and some hair clipping for certain dances!! It was really a great experience!( in fact i was even imagine myself being some celebrities assistant doing back stage jobs~ =D) and i really glad tat i dint missed out the very last rehearsal and the MPP.
I even cried (a little only la~~:P) while listening teachers' very last briefing to all peserta. It was so touch and i can reli felt all peserta and teachers' feeling altho i weren't one of them. I can feel how hard they practice and how they want to present the very best performance on the night. and i actually had the very strong feeling of wanting to join peserta for next PT too! (same goes to mei ying..haha) The scene was so touching seeing them sitting in rounds and listening teachers last reminding~ the song was truly nice too =] Jing wen was even kept asking me where to download tat song whole night too...LoL


It's was so funny 5 of us, meiying, yiting, siaw wei, jing wen and I searching for the goodies bag and even ran for it once we saw it at Lobi B~ LOL...Siaw Wei was so cute and so 'auntie' checking everything inside the bag and ran down bus just to change another goodies bag~ haha! Yiting was too keep nag siaw wei for keep joining us 2nd year seniors and tat was making siaw wei looks like a senior too..LoL~
Anyway,being Internal Ajk was so different from publisity! =] Yay! i experienced both front stage and back stage of MPP in 2 years! haha...what's next? erm..not sure..yesterday was msn-ing with shin wang , telling him my thoughts ! and he was actually encouraging me to join PT again next year as he did tat for 3 years d~and i reli wonder wat makes him so loyal to be publisity AJK for all 3 years.. haha...

Btw, yay~ finally wei keat, yin lei and chin boon can back to class on Mon d~ no more helping them sign names and reminding him do hwk liao~ haha~



Glad of joining PT
=]



Friday, October 2, 2009

021009

今天。。。好开心=]刚从华乐的‘月光会’回来。。。
会用开引号关引号是因为学长学姐说是月光会,不过我们 end up 却是在makmal bilik kebudayaan里面吹冷气,吃零食,月饼,联谊,乱哈啦一番~月亮? 看都没有看到咯。。哈哈。。。不过真的好好玩,大家都好好搞笑=D

其实刚刚很想拍照的。。尤其是今天来了个新的笛子老师,衍胜老师,还真的如ah heng昨天说的,很年轻(听ah heng说他才25岁罢了),长得还蛮不错看的,我个人觉得他有点像方大同,junie觉得他像品冠,婉婷说他像林俊杰,hehe...总之老师就是长得适合走斯文路线的人~=D第一次婉婷指给我们看时,我还以为是没看过的senior,没想到是我们的老师~呵呵 =D 不过,坦白说,今天老师教的还真是我第一次抓到老师教的东西,他是听过我们每个人吹得笛子后,点出我们的缺点,然后告诉我们该改进的地方~严格来说,就是我们连基本笛子都没打好,要从头再练习过基本的~其实我也觉得我们之前好像也走太快了~嗯~我也该加把劲了~=]

最后还是那句,我真的真的好喜欢华乐哦~ ^^

加油
弗莱恩=]

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

华乐

我说我真的真的好喜欢华乐。。每去一次就更爱华乐多一点^^.
Seniors们都好nice,很可爱~尤其是ah heng 还有tony~呵呵。。他们真的好好笑哦~今天特别早到,而且还是第一个到~到练习地点看见没有半个人影,还真的吓一跳,不是说有重要事项要和我们说的吗,咋半个人都没有?马上call junie问他。。然后约好在礼堂门口meet..没等一会儿,就看见tony进来。。然后更着其他人也陆续到来。。。我才放心~~^^

刚练完华乐回来,原本还打算去看看佛光的表演,不过刚刚在讨论着明年演奏会的事,就没去成了~也没关系,其实也没有很想去,就junie问起才想就顺便和他一起去看看吧了=]
by the way,重点是.....恩!对!我中去也可以参与演奏会了!!自从上次看过他们的精彩表演后,我真的真的好希望有一天我也能像他们一样,现在终于可以了!!恩!一定要把笛子练好~刚刚坐ah heng的车回宿舍,还说为了报答他送我回宿舍,我会努力练好笛子的!ah heng 说有你这句话就够了~呵呵~

真的很庆幸我当初决定加入华乐~我想我真的真的还没试过这么喜欢一个自己加入的课外活动·=]


end of January,
OT performance COMING SOON!
^^

Friday, September 25, 2009

250909

after working it whole day~
Finally~ I Think I DONE IT~ ^^

Now i can have my holidays...
practice my dizi..
^^

=]

Friday, September 18, 2009

Forward email

收到就同事的email,觉得很有意思^^

Check this out....NO MORE 5C'S BUT NEW 5B'S


Well.....here is something to link the 5cs to the newer 5 bs !

I don't need a CAR, but I want a BMW

I don't need a CONDO, but I want a BUNGALOW

I don't need you to have CASH but I want you to own a BANK

I don't need you to have a CAREER but I want you to be a BOSS

It's interesting for you to read!

Most of you would have heard of the Singapore 5C's! :

Car, Condo, Credit Card(Gold), Cash and Career

Heard of the 5B's?

B - BMW

B - Body

B - Brain

B - Billionaire

B - Bungalow

And, and addition with the 5K's ......................

Kiasu (scared of losing)

Kiasee (scared of dying)

Kiabor (scared of wife)

Kiaboh (scared of having nothing)

Kiachenghu (scared of government)

We've been reading about the 5C's! and 5K's for Singaporeans, now
comes the 5 Numerals and Malaysia 's equivalent...

Singapore's 'practice' for Simple Living :
1 - One Wife
2 - Two Children
3 - Three Bedroom Condo
4 - Four Wheels
5 - Five Figure Salary

Malaysia's Malays 'practice' to Simple Living:
5 - Five Children
4 - Four Wives
3 - Three Figure Salary
2 - Two Wheels
1 - One-Storey Link House

虽然逗趣,
不过这些都是事实

Thursday, September 17, 2009

笛子

i had fun today^^

----------------
不过因为上个星期考试而缺席华乐练习,今天就跟不上了~不知道明天怎么面对老师。。有时候更不上老师的教学,会觉得很惭愧,怎么自己这么差。。总是get 不到的~然而。。我真的很希望能把它学好。。真的。
决定放假一星期,都练笛子!^^

加油弗莱恩

Friday, September 11, 2009

2nd year 1st sem

记得upper 6的时候,有一晚上网到很迟,大概12am++,对于当时的我来说,那真的很迟了,那个时候,我很少上网之那么迟,如果不知为了project查资料,应该哦早就睡了~不过这都不是重点,呵呵~
重点是。。。话说那天凌晨竟然还看见senior, Johnson刚上线。。然后就好奇呀。。
就问说‘哇,这么迟了还上线?”
“迟?不算迟吧?对于大学生来说,凌晨12点,夜晚才刚开始呢!”

当时的我十分之一他的那一句回答,觉得大学生真的这样忙吗?他是上线聊天吧?
自己上大学后,大一的时候,可也还真的没有真的很忙,尤其是sem 1的时候,那是我真的是很的空~而且当时的课还偏偏都排在最早10am或11am的,,每天都早早睡,迟迟起~sem 2 时,虽然大多课都在8点,而且功课也开始多了起来,不过还是没有需要每天忙到三更半夜那种~
所以大一的时候还是会质疑johnson说的~
现在大二了,功课,projects,什么之类的开始堆积起来了~大家都忙得不可开交了。。忙到半夜三四点才睡觉,隔天又8点课。。
这使得我才开始体会johnson所说的~现在的我看见12am真的会觉得还早。。而且多数时超过2点才睡~
最近大家比的不是比早几点睡,而是比迟。。你可能以为每天3点才睡已经很迟了,可是一山还有一山高,总会有人比你更迟睡,早上530的也有,从昨天半夜230到隔天早上直接去考试的也有~几天没睡的也有~
我说,我们真的正过着很极端的生活。
的空就的空得要命,忙就忙得要命~ORZ


祝我们都好运
^^

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

福无双至今朝至,祸不单行昨日行。


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福无双至今朝至,祸不单行昨日行。
我真的希望如此。
恶运,去吧!好运,回来吧!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Good coursemates




自coursetrip后,大家感情有更浓厚了。原本还没去之前还直嚷要去um华乐演奏会,要和佳伟他们去jogoya..不过现在的我其实却很庆幸我选择了coursetrip =]

今天和美云,靖雯,洁薇原打算去图书馆讨论project,怎知UKM的学生突然变得好勤劳,图书馆外竟然爆满 ! 图书馆也竟然原来在公假时,是关闭的=="..没办法是好到fac 哪里去做,原想在foyer做就算了,可是又嫌没有plug,然后我们4个就胆大包天的趁124 lecture hall没人,在里面泡了一整天=] 好开心,拥有很多有coursemate 爱的coursemate. 不过在facebook 及msn说肚子饿,希望有人愿意特地出来拿食物给我们吃(整栋pusanika竟然在公假时,没半间店营业!)。没想到,luh ching 和 agnes还真的愿意帮我们打包。。尤其是agnes那不断关心我们,说他真的愿意特地大老远从她宿舍出来,买面包给我们!^^可是我们又觉得真的很不好意思,所以婉拒她了~过后agnes还好不放心问说真的吗?不要饿到胃痛了哦~呵呵。。
我真的好喜欢好喜欢我的coursemates们~照片里只有我们这29个有去trip的人。。有机会一定会弄一个我们全班人的照片。。^^


我觉得我真的很幸运
能认识大家
^^


Thursday, September 3, 2009

friends

saw this in ppl's blog...and i felt the same way oso lo~~

有些人身边有很多朋友
他总是毫无隐藏的把每天发生的每一件趣事都告诉了他的朋友们
朋友们却忘了他也是人,也会有难过的时候……

有些人身边有很多朋友
别人总以为他会很开心、生活会很充实
却怎么也不相信他也许正在羡慕着只有一个朋友的人……

有些人身边有很多朋友
每次看见他身边的人总是不同一个
羡慕着他的好人缘的人总是不明白
其实他也想要找到一个人
一个他可以放心把心交给他的人
一个他可以分享快乐和悲伤的人
一个每天固定在他身边的人……

有些人身边有很多朋友
有些人真的想要改变不要再这样"花心"
可是
有些人的心不知道什么时候开始,被锁上了,再也打不开了……

in fact
she wasnt as 'bad' we tot
she is just a girl who just entered Uni not for long
and last time
i behaved like her too



Saturday, August 29, 2009

project

我真的真的很不喜欢纳西喜欢自我夸大的家伙。满嘴说的子能有多厉害就多厉害,给予他帮组是还直接拒绝,搞到我当时多尴尬。。现在好啦。。要rush project才来和我求救~这就算了。。当大家在做project时,还特别问他会不会double spacing,因为有些人不太会,那家伙竟然说‘那个不会的人肯定不是我~’,现在好啦。。那家伙的work Email 过来了。。还没仔细看。。不过大概看,就觉得更本好像就没有很用心地去做,明明就告诉他,他的part是全project最重要的,可是我在他的work里面看不出他有用心去做咯~还有更气的是口口声声夸大的桌那个不会用double spacing的人肯定不是我~可是我看了他的work,明明那个不会的人,他也是其中之一~ orz..这世界上咋会有这样的人呢?受不了!

是我要求太高,还是那家伙没有用心做呢?

大学真的什么人都有

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Direct Junior

。我不知道是自己现已为senior的关系还是怎样。总觉得今年的juniors搞什么啊?不是爱在学姐学长面前装很忙的样子,就是在会学长学姐的话时十分之没有礼貌(以为会shoot人很了不起,有些更为自己这样的行为沾沾自喜),在不然就是拍马屁~ ==
说别人时,同时也在检讨自己,我想我也有些少少的跩,不过我个人是觉得还好的,就遇见不喜欢的人,我尽可能是不会去打招呼的,如果可以就装看不见。(不过现已在改进中~)。所以如果有juniors这样的话,其实我是能理解的,不过以上我刚刚提到的确实我所不能接受的。

今天从班长口中才知道,原来我的直属学妹有点跩。事前我并不知道他会是那样的人,因为之前有接触他几次,都觉得他还好,不过今天听班长转述,他是如何对其他学长的态度,有些许的让我惊讶。我算是和直属学妹感情还好,美云也是,意婷就不是很熟了,可是学妹还是知道我们这三位学姐是他的直属学姐。偏偏开始遇见时,因为美云先pass notes给他,所以他和美云比较熟点,便直接skip我和意婷,只和美云打招呼,明明他三个直属学姐就站在他面前,他却能这样好意思,很狠心地skip掉我们。。事后,我pass notes给她,大家见面才较有打招呼~ ==
最近大家正准备着要搞一年一次的coursetrip,听班长说大约全部juniors就去了,就只剩我的直属学妹妹去,然后啊。。他们就特地他电话去问他为什么不去,想不到他的回答竟然是:“我就是不想去·”

天。。可能别人看了会觉得。。车。。没什么嘛。。就这样罢了。。可是。。可是。。我们是他的学长学姐耶。。竟然以这种语气对待我们?!想想如果你的学妹那样对你,你会怎样?靠!
好心啦。。如果不想去也不必这样回答。。至少随便找个理由回应也好啊~

coursemate过后便说说:KL人是这样的啦,很现实的。。
真的是这样吗?其实我心里的默默希望,我的直属学妹不是这样的人,至少我遇见的kl人,目前为止并没有像coursemate说的那样~

p.s.照片随便放的,post里面提到的人都没有出现在照片里。
Good luck fulaien

Saturday, August 22, 2009

谢谢


再次真的真的十分之感谢你们两位。。在我最最最需要帮组时给予我帮助。
谢谢。
真的很庆幸有你们这样的朋友^^v


thx for being there for me

Thursday, August 20, 2009

不平静的一夜


引用alwim说的:‘真是个不安宁的一夜!’,昨天从华乐联系回来后,上facebook, junior就开始问我学校是不是会关,当时的我还很relax地告诉他不会啦。。学校这么大,有很多谣言是难免的。senior我会等学校消息。。。不到一会儿,美云就得提上来敲我的门告诉我可以开始收拾准备回家了,因为听说咋校新春推介礼有人问高层学校会不会关,得到的消息说有70%会关。听到美云那样说,原本很steady的我也开始和junior一起紧张起来了!干净收拾,打包准备谁是离开学校,连原本该做的功课都没什么心情做了。。
收拾好,便守在学校官方网站,facebook,forum,华裔学生理事会的网站. 我说昨天我真的好超过,超级紧张的!一直update status,说什么用跑的也要离开学校之类的话。。而其他人也开一直update status, giving comments,开始询问,谩骂的也有,一直到爆! 真的到爆了!因为我们之后真的有一段时间开不到facebook.一些人还以为是学校block着不让我们开了呢!

最后,今天早上我们还是乖乖的去上课,一切恢复平静。学校到最后也没有关,NC也出来表示学校将一切如常,不会关。

我真的over reacted 了
要改呀~弗莱恩!



Monday, August 17, 2009

我们大家



今天上kok前,很意外的。。我们三个竟然能聊起心事来了。。
原来意婷不是我想象中的那样。
原来不只是我有这样的处境。
原来大家都有大家的苦衷。
这东西对于我来说算是习惯了,都这么多年了,比,对我来说是一个很自然的举动,就像今天俊贤说的neuroreflexion (不懂是不是真的有着个字,随便。。呵呵)
大家把话说出来,当然说到激动时会想要哭,当然,我没敢刚没那么激动啦。。因为就也常和ojm说,所以就还好,只是意婷有点激动,差点就流泪了,还好忍下来了,不然我还真的不知道要怎么反应。
相反地,我们的靖雯小姐,真的是一个无忧无虑的女孩。。没啥烦恼没啥压力,凡是尽力都好,我想他的生活应该天天都是快乐的吧?~呵=D

原来好多事情都不是我以为那样的。=]

还有。。
终于,大家sense到了。当然没有人去问,只是一直猜测问题,不过我真的希望是我们太敏感了,不然一直这样下去,我真的也。。。不知道~就。。顺其自然咯~



just dont make it
so complicated

Friday, August 14, 2009

那是我不愿再看见的其中一张照片

我想我是提起了多大的勇气才勇敢地去按下sheau yee的icon然后chat...
有些事有些人,是我现在再也不想去提起也不想去触碰的。。
sheau yee是在过去曾告诫过我的人(可是那时太迟了)~刚刚sheau yee 的一句:你有想念我们吗?
老实说,我真的打不上来。。都不想去触碰一年半前的事了,其实并不回刻意去想念那个地方,想念在那里的人,明明事情之牵连到一个人(当然肯定不是sheau yee),可是去殃及了我再也不会去想念或想联络在那里的所有认识的人。之前和大家拍的照片都放在电脑的一个文件里面,不过却很少去打开它,因为我怕,我害怕看到之前的人事物,害怕面对一年半前。。。所以可想而知,我是提起了多大的勇气按下sheau yee的icon 然后寒暄了几句。

是的,我想我是在逃避去一年半前的人事物。当时的我怎么能这么幼稚,不成熟呢?我不知道。我只知道,现在,能不联络大家就不联络,能不去那里就不去,甚至路过都会刻意把头別一边。因为我真的不想去面对。当然有时我在想如果有一天真的别无选择,真的有天回到那个地方,我会怎样呢?装不认识? 我不知道。能免则免~

最后,我只是很敷衍的回答: 我最近很忙,好多功课,没时间去想别的事,我在大学有好多新的朋友。我要下线了,要去做别的事,再见。(事实上我只是不想不敢再继续下去罢了,可是我找不到更好的理由)
下线后,心里竟然感到莫名的害怕~

可是。到头来回想了一年半前的事,其实说真的,是件没有开头没有结尾,不过是件很小的事,可是却带个了我好大的影响。



我想
我应该比一年半前的我
成熟多了吧?

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

i was just......


i heard another voice telling :
hey! you did it purposely! you are so evil!

Yea..I pissed someone off purposely. and yes purposely.


i admit.



Saturday, August 8, 2009

讲堂的电脑

我说学校的电脑还是人用的吗?
更本是用来养viurs的吧?才插过一次,就有110只virus在里面!!
天啊~



又要format pendrive了~
orz

Friday, August 7, 2009

ABC

我真的热切希望你不要在每次人家要提回家时就泼人家冷水。你能一直回家别人就不行吗?真的,我有时真的很不爽你!可是却又要装得若无其事那样,真的很不舒服。。

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最近心情真的真的很不好,对于身边很多是很多人都不爽。我想在某些程度上我真的有一点心理不平衡。。在我心里不平衡时,那些没察觉到的人如果这是跑来对我说话,就会被我酸~我真的很抱歉,可是我就是没法控制~我很想骂人,可是做不出,所以只好用酸的。。我也很想学kathy那样,遇到学校里不爽的人事物就在部落格大骂特骂的。。可是我不行~


可是。。。可是哦~~刚刚在巴士上才想到好久没找洁明说说话了,一上msn就看见他了~好开心。。呵呵。然后啊~就向他说自己好像心里不平衡什么之类的。洁明说我有时候真的是一个人容易妒忌别人的人。我同意,我想最大的因素是因为从以前就在前面班,常常就会被给予压力,不能输。。一输啊,心里就会有一点点的不平衡~
不过,就经过洁明被我遗弃不爽身边的人事物,之后再被他劝告了几句后,心里稍微平衡了些。。呵呵。
其实我真的很庆幸有一班这样的好,又互相关心的朋友~真的!~^^

p.s.我们什么时候要在去海边?什么时候要在去看日出,就算看不到大家玩自拍,谈谈天也很棒!
我好开心有这些好棒的朋友。希望H1N1快快离去,这样我们才能放心的去动物园~^^


我很惊讶
你也感觉得出我心情不太好
你的i ABC我心领了
^^

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Poker Face.

i'm really grateful of having such nice direct senior and coursemates ^^
I appreciate your 'gambateh' ^^
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You know...sometimes you'd really get desperate of being so friendly and nice to ppl...yet ppl's respond would be like 'is tat smth wrong with her?' or just give u a fake smile or keep looking at u without any expression.

I tried. I really tried from the first day i move here. and wat i got was always dissapointed me.
and with tat, i'm sometimes back to the old me. To the girl who didnt love saying hi , to the one who was always so cold..in fact, i hate tat. i always wonder why cant I be like yow cheng or yiling them? why cant i learn from 'idol'? why cant i just stop being so sensitive? why cant i just opened out my heart and stop thinking so much?
I wished I could look at the brightside on everything. I really wished to.
I'm just not as happy as you think always.

What happened to me..i wonder...i really wonder~
I think I'm just a person who wear a mask when she's out of her room..trying to protect herself.




or perhaps
i'm just being emo now


Sunday, August 2, 2009

意见

我不介意问意见,可是不要over.
请不要事事都问意见~
很难想象拥有一个没有主见的男朋友是怎样的~

什么都要征求大家意见,完全没有要给意见,对于接下来要干什么完全没有打算不知情·
男朋友没意见,女朋友没意见,轮到身为朋友的我来给意见
你没意见,他没意见,轮到我来给大家意见
受不了~


是我的感想罢了

PT联谊手册

昨天终于从ex-daddy拿到等了一年的国大中秋二十九届联谊手册了。。
还真不好意思要他特地转过来我宿舍拿来给我
虽然他是说他要去kajang, 顺便过来的啦~可是我只那其实没有很顺路咯

^^v


啦啦啦

Saturday, August 1, 2009

010809

为了健康,我们决定取消去动物园之旅~洁明说的对,健康比较重要,没有必要去冒那个险,时间大把,再plan过也不迟。。^^只是,觉得有点对不起佳伟,因为他真的很想去~可是因为我怕死的关系。。然后问大家在考虑过要不要去动物园的计划~接着就演变成现在这样~

不过H1N1现在真的看起来蛮严重的,好多学校都关了。。
这事儿。。会过去的吧?大家都挨得过的吧~希望大家都健康~
-----------------
做人还真的真难。。
人家的男朋友,我们也要跟着烦。看脸色,猜话中话,看动作,才心思。。。orz。我对对这些真的超级无敌的差~(就好象你小小声对我说话那样,百分之90%我绝对会先问har? 因为我真的很不喜欢说话太小声的人,我听不见啊~)
不可以简单点吗? 虽然我能明白昨天他的立场,可是我不能明白为什么她的宿舍友们不明白,就是要说有问题~==||
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前天替jing wen小姐庆祝生日。。好好玩,他真的好可爱的。只是不知道为什么看见他一个人去拿饭,默默一个人走回宿舍的背影,顿时觉得他真的好可怜~
常常取笑他(因为他的想法和动作有时真的让人很受不了,更本就不像是一个长大了的女孩一样~),反省自己是觉得自己很坏,可是不笑却又觉得b beh tahan~这是我们在庆祝玩她生日后。得出的结论~ 意婷最近好像也和之前的我一样,一提到靖文就会笑不停~

不过能召集大家,然后给靖文那样的birthday surprise真的很棒~^^之前取消它的就一笔勾销吧?呵呵~
我真的好喜欢我的coursemates们~^^~~

好高兴
能和你们成为朋友

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

uni life

之前感叹大学什么样的人都有~

刚刚去一趟cafe,发现什么样的juniors也都有~
拜托啦。。senior我是没有像你那样忙过吗?


忍

Sunday, July 26, 2009

harry potter @ midvalley

昨天终于去看Harry Potter And the Half-blood Prince. 觉得这电影顾名思义就是拍给哈利迷的电影~因为这电影真的得看过书,真正了解故事的人才明白电影再说什么否着你将会觉得更本就是浪费钱来看一部看不懂又没有结局的电影~昨天看电影时,(当然每一部 harry potter电影我都会十分之用心,paid full attention来看的。。呵呵。。读书都不见得我这样用心呢~) 受不了后面的马来人(我觉得他们应该不是哈利迷咯) 不断在说话,查时间~~吵死了。。转过头看了他们一眼,他们还是继续说话。。更可恶的是,竟然还有人睡着了,而且还打呼呢~~受不了!
其实昨天一早起身就觉得身体有点不舒服,好像有点发烧。。可是就觉得我还可以忍得了。。而且不想失约,所以就抱着不舒服的身子和大家去看电影。。逛街。。整个早上。。就连在看电影时,我都是十分之累及不舒服的。。看完电影后又谁大家去买日用品,因为不舒服所以买完需要物品就出来了。。还好家乐福外有长椅,所以马上就坐下来休息等待。。当时不知怎么的超想睡的,可是人还在midvalley 能怎么办呢?~要回去又好又好长的一段路。。还要挤ktm..所以不断告诉自己要忍下去,等回来宿舍后什么都别管,到头就睡(虽然当时还有功课还没赶完~)。。
可是就在晚餐后。。。我真的被自己炸到~~当时其实我真的真的没什么胃口要吃东西,可是大伙想吃不想扫他们的兴,所以也随他们去了。就随便点了薄饼及一杯中国茶。。就在吃完晚餐后,我竟然好了。。是的~就在大家正准备回去的时候,我竟然好了~~ = =||
没办法。。大家赶时间,后来只好玩拍照了~=)

不过还好啦。。还好身体好了。。不然我想我真的会在KTM里面晕倒。。人是多到~~~~~就连在那里的保安员都在火车来临时,大声喊道:‘get ready~~~'呵呵~



真的很庆幸
可以和form 6认识的朋友
还保持着这么深的友谊
^^

Thursday, July 23, 2009

PT



昨天想说去支持下伟杰。。就和美云还有靖文一起初期过大中秋推介礼。。其实推介礼和之前的没什么两样~我们三个觉得有点闷所以早在主席,嘉宾致辞,MMS..后就离开了。。
其实上面说的还不是重点。。我想说的是不知道是不是上了2nd year会自然而然当1st year的小弟弟小妹妹看待~昨天坐在一群1st year的旁边, 觉得他们的思想谈话超无聊又不成熟的~他们并不晓得自己说的东西已经显出自己的不成熟,yao zhong以高EQ的方式回应他们时,这些不懂事的小孩,还在沾沾自喜着~~
唉~~

回想
去年的自己
是否也和他们一样呢?

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

lecture hall


cool right i actually having class in a cinema like lecture hall...everyone enjoys the atmosphere there yet too relax and the lecturer too boring (dunno wat he talking about oso) most ppl fall asleep~
haha

recently lot ppl sick
guys..take care o~


Sunday, July 19, 2009

180709

昨天上完ko-k后就和coursemates一起到kajang进货~~^^还真是和好玩又有趣的一天。靖文真的很可爱,好小妹妹哦~呵呵~
买完东西后就一起吃晚餐,jingwen直说难得出来就要吃一餐好的。。可是又不知道要到哪里去吃,所以最后还是决定认同我的意见,去拜访肯德基叔叔.然后决定让 jaet wei 和 jing wen去点。呵呵,可能是因为两个人都是属于size 小的那种,听他们说当服务生听见他们说:'makan sini.'时,还有点惊讶。。哈哈。概不会把他们当未成年小孩看了吧~哈哈

大家吃前吃后都拼命不断照相,我想所填那里的时刻都觉得我们很可奇怪吧~^^吃完后,大家决定把免费附送的lunch box给jing wen.怎知 这KDO公主也太超过了吧。。剩下的水草他说要带回去给伟杰也就算了,可是她连我们最后喝完的汽水瓶也带回去说是她正缺少这种水瓶。。好超过哦~大伙看见他那举动都笑不停~~
他真是好可爱的一个人呀~呵呵


好喜欢和大伙出去呢
^^


p.s.:next week, go MV watch Harry Potter with another gang again~~hehe